~The Thoughts That Hold Rose~
Everyday, the real Rose
A Lovely Calling:
December 4th,2015
I feel I might of given some recognition to A Lovely Calling in the past but that definitely doesn't stop me from calling them out a second time! ;) Yesterday I sat in my chair with tears streaming down my face. I felt broken, upset, and alone....and I couldn't really explain how I felt to anyone. Finally I went to an old friend. I mean old in both ways ;) "Some Old Guy" has been there for me through so many problems and I'm more than greatful for that! I went to him and asked him for advice as I almost always do in these kind of situations. I was troubled, and I knew he of all people would help me without a judged thought in the world.
Guy number 2 had asked me out. The night before he'd been so sweet and the things he had said were more than amazing. He flattered me and made me smile and reminded me what it meant to feel and be loved. Once he'd asked me out I began to cry though...I was reminded on how much love my ex WASN'T giving me... I was reminded that he really might be gone and that hurt. It's like, he was so important to me, my entire world, and then he was next to nothing...there was no spark I'd felt everyday...I simply felt unloved and uncared for sometimes and it sucked....When I told all of this to "SomeOldGuy" while in tears he told me wasn't sure what I should do but there was very good blog in mind. He sent me the link to A Lovely Calling and god was it lovely. Two nights before this in tears in my bed I prayed to god again after what had been a long time. Isn't is strange how we always go back to him when we need something...? I'd thanked god for blessing me and giving me all he had up to that point, but I'd asked he'd give me a sign to show me what I'm supposed to do now. That next day guy #2 appeared in my life. I'd already known him yes but we'd never been closer then that. The next night I prayed, I thanked god and explained how I felt that was a bit of a sign, I then said god please give me a solid sign. I woke up and yesterday morning guy #2 asked me out. It felt so strange.
Was this my next oppertunity?
A shot to be happier and crazy in love ;) I then got the blog link and the first post was What's A Girl To Do When God Forgets To Write Her Love Story? After reading it, my entire life clicked together and it was like an entire weight had been lifted. I was smiling and happier then ever, feeling only the best feelings in this entire world.
I realized I wasn't alone, God was there with me, walking every step of the way with me. I realized I'd always said god make this happen, I know you'll write my storybook, but was that because I trusted him fully? Or because I knew what I wanted and expected him to give it to me???? I hated realizing that it might be choice #2...I also realized that either way God still is writing it, I just have to keep up. Every word he writes is a stepping stone above the creek or stream.
He is writing the word and I'm jumping the stones, but he's there to make sure the words are stable and I don't fall within the water.
Two of my favorite mottos or quotes, whatever you call them, in my life appeared to me then. #1.) I do not need a man to define me. and #2.) I shouldn't be the woman who needs a man, but the woman a man needs. Even at my age I'm still young. I don't need to look four, five years into my future before decided what to eat for breakfast and if it's a good choice. When guys are into me some of the first thoughts are #1.) would he be a great dad and #2.) having our own place to stay and holding eachother.
THATS CRAZY!!!
I have to take this one day at a time and put my faith in Christ to help me along the tough spots. My entire point to this post is, many times when I'm lost, confused or upset, A Lovely Calling has been there for me. They have always calmed my crazy overthinking and broken heart.
I recommend this blog to any girl or maybe guy who truly wants to feel a difference.
I can promise this lovely blog will give you that choice. ~Love, Rose
Lots of people have different tastes in music. Mine is all over the place and it depends mainly on my mood to whats blasting through my headphones/earbuds. Over the past year I've dropped and gained a lot of different artists and bands. Justin Bieber being one of them. Don't run away at the sound of his name, listen to what I'm saying!! ^^ When Justin Bieber first became a thing I was definitely a number one fan. I had all of his cd's and loved everything he sang. My friend and I actually would fight over who liked him more!!!
Then he crashed and burned. His music utterly sucked, he was being a dumbass and nothing he did or said made sense. I basically said screw that and got over him fast. Recently though he's back and brand new, facing a world which he begs forgivness from. His new cd, Purpose is basically an entire cd of him showing he can be so much better. In songs like Mark My Words, I'll Show You and Sorry he explains that everyone makes mistakes, if he's given the chance he'll blow us all away. I actually was very surprised when I realized I loved a lot of the songs on his cd. Sorry, Love Yourself and What Do You Mean are all played over the air on radio many times a day and have quickly risen to fame. Before you go judging him or his music, listen to this cd and hear him out. He just might surprise you.
"Never judge someone before you meet them, they may be nothing like the rumors said." ~Lilly Sighn, iisuperwomanii.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3y3a2MRoMnI&list=PLWKXJQUwVcffFv9_NKTnmKuEcPdmTMx97&index=3