~The Thoughts That Hold Rose~
Everyday, the real Rose
Looking The Part
Looking The Part
December 10, 2015
Rose
Ever had a special event planned that you felt just needed to be perfect?
Just the other night I attended an amazing banquet and concert and I definitely needed to look the part.
Because this is a christmas event I painted nails an adorable shiny solid red to match my hair and smile. I might be wrong but there's just something beautiful and elegent when red nails get near white teeth. ;) I wore simple black heels to not only make my short self look taller but to match up with the tight skinny jeans I'd decided to wear.
The top I wore was a beautiful christmas green.
This top was skin tight and showed off all the right curves. ;)
So to quickly replay, blue skinny jeans, a fitted christmas green v neck t shirt, black 1-2 inch heels, (we wanna keep this elegent but sexy ;)} and red fingernails. Already we look like a cute bundle of christmas joy ;). Next I curled my hair, ALL OF IT. One of my biggest problems i used to have was curling ALL of my hair.
I'd always miss a section or give the heck up! XD Finally after curling my hair (blow dry before curling, if you curl with wet hair you will singe, burn and ruin your hair.) I placed in dangling earrings that were actually bowties with bells on the end. They actually rang when you shook them, or my head. XD Sitting in an hour concert and walking around for god knows how long I was complimented many times and not only that but I was confortable in what I was wearing!
The biggest key when going anywhere like this is even though you look sexy or beautiful as hell you have to be comfortable.
One thing that definitely shows not just to guys but next to basically everyone, is if you're having your own battle during silent night with your lungs and breathing capabilities. That night I wore no make up because I was going for a dainty and elegent look which definitely pulled off. Trust me most of us can live without the mascara ;). ~Love, Rose
December 3rd,2015
Letting Go and Moving On
So I wanna talk about something that's really been getting to me over the last few days. Letting go and moving on....I guess I'm just not very good at either of these things. I told you guys about both of the guys in my life. One definitely likes me and wants an us and the other I feel likes me and cares a lot...when I'm away from my ex and it's just me and this other guy I feel like there's maybe a connection. He's a great guy and really sweet. I can't find a real reason not to feel that way about him. But when I'm with my ex so many emotions flood back. I loved this man with my everything....
I think he was the first real guy that I was head over heals in love with and that's a really big deal. Sometimes I feel that if I hold onto him, if I give it time, he'll love me too more obviously, and he'll take care of me and ask me to be his again .Other times I feel maybe this is my chance to let go of my past, tie up my knots and find someone who wont walk away as soon as it gets difficult as hell. I can't ever blame him for leaving me...i get it...it was difficult and hard and loving me through that hell storm we called love was hard as crap.
Another part of me thinks...i cant let go of him unless i leave him fully....drop him out of my life and get on with myself and who I am. Yet another part of me feels he wont be able to love me, this new guy, the way I need him too. Finally the last part of me feels maybe being single is awesome and telling any guy period that I'm not really looking for a relationship and I need a break for myself and to find who I am and what I love truly.
I've said so many times I don't need a man to determine who I am or my life style. Though feeling that attention that love it feels amazing does it not? There are people who have blogs who we look up to, we think of them as though they never have these issues, as though they are to amazing to grand to highly to feel these problems as problems at all. They don't show us their vaulnerable side and maybe that's where I am different.
Some days there are things nawing at my mind and I have to share them with you guys, you're my family, my roses.
I guess I wanna thank you guys for always being here and coming back to me and telling me your thoughts etc. Love you guys and hopfully I can figure this problem of mine out. Have a great night, I might post more but idk tonight. ~Love,Rose
Update: Relationship Status:
December 3rd,2015
So I have been gone for a while, almost 3+ months! Now that I'm back I should probably update you guys on my life. I will share why I was gone and some of the things that happened during my "abscence". The first and probably biggest thing I have to tell you guys involves my relationship. I read back over my last post before I left and laugh...My exact words were, "loosing my bae would destroy me." Folks...thats exactly what happened. But he lost me too. We split up about two weeks after that post. I had been trying really hard to maintain our relationship but sometimes there just can't be a fixing. It breaks my heart to say whats next. He and i had agreed to be "best friends".
We'd known eachother before being together and we didn't want that from stopping us from keeping in contact. Well to this day, we rarely talk. We still talk each day but only shortly. A how're you, a what's up and a good night/morning text message is about as far as we get. It's crazy to think about someone who had meant the entire world to me, now barely even talking to me. A big part of me wants to say that he will talk to me for real again, he'll love me but sometimes you just...you have to let go. There's this new guy and he's asked me out. I don't really know what to say to him. I asked him to let me think about it and I'm really glad he was okay with my answer...
I'm okay now though. Im not depressed if anything I'm much stronger then I was before this all. I've told you guys so many times, dont be the woman who needs a man, be the woman a man needs. Never let a man determine your happiness. Lastly, you will never need a man to define yourself. You will be okay on your own. You're strong and smart and a great person. If you arent with someone now or your relationship just didnt work out, then don't worry. Your other half is on their way, looking for you just as much as you are them. Yes heartbreaks and break ups are part of life, but i promise you, you'll find that meant to be moment. You'll find the prince/princess charming. Never give up on love just because you witness a war.