~The Thoughts That Hold Rose~
Everyday, the real Rose
7CupsofTea
7cupsofTea
June 29, 2015
Rose
Tonight I was thinking jeez what could I write about? Then I realized I could write about something that has helped me so much in my life this past year.
7cupsoftea.com. You guys might be a little aware of my past. It has been full of ups and downs. I went through a really bad round of depression, more like a lot of rounds, and I wasn't winning. For about a period of 5 years suicidal thoughts, depression, nightmares, feeling of no self worth, and self harm haunted my personality and my life. When I was with most people I was a huge smiler and very happy but when I was in my home or by myself I was having a really hard time getting through simple day to day tasks like climbing out of bed, making food, and communicating. A few times I've even attempted suicide. I was in a very bad place. (I just want to point out that now I am fully recovered from my depression etc. I have my boyfriend and friends who fully support me in my life now and I can truthfully honestly say I am happy.) During that period of time I was going online hoping to find people like me who also felt this way or who could help me. I lied about my age so I was able to get on certain theropy sites online and used a few different crisis chat lines etc. Though many of them helped a lot of them weren't always online when I needed them. That's when I came across 7cupsoftea. This isn't a certified theropy site, it's teens and adults online talking to people and supporting them. Now, not just anyone can instantly become a listener, they have to go through a class that can take anwhere from multiple hours in a row to multiple days. I myself have seen the program and it's very long. You can log in anytime day or night from anywhere around the world and get help on topics like depression, self-harm, anxiety, break up advice, alcohol and drugs, chronic pain, and even simple things like lonelyness and college life. They've helped me a lot with my relationship and my own feelings and thoughts. This is truly an amazing site and i've even made a few friends on the way of viewing it. I really wanted to make a shout out to this site because it's helped me so much and I really can't thank them all enough. If you ever need help, this is the true place to go. They will help you and support you through pretty much anything you need <3.
I really wanted to make a quick shout out to some of my favorite listeners!
Their account names are justahelper17 and lasflores.
They are both amazing girls who have supported me and helpef me through things like my relationship, my feelings of self worth, and just my day to day mood. I love these girls and I'd recommend them and this site to anyone. It's safe and full of people who care so please don't hesitate to check it out!
(This site is free and an amazing life savor for me, i love it and i hope you do too! ^^)
How Quickly Can A Bad Thing Change Your Mood?
How Quickly Can A Bad Thing Change Your Mood?
June 27, 2015
Rose
How easily can something break you? Hurt you? Upset you? Some people can be hit once and fall to their knees, crying and weeping, saying "God why did you do this? What horrible crime have I commited to receive such punishment?" Others can be hit, again and again and hold their head high until it's just to much...When is enough enough? When is it okay to push someone so far down that they have tears in their eyes? When is it okay to abuse someone, or push their buttons until the scream?
Never.
Yet still there are stupid people who push us and upset us. Still there are people who make us cry, make us hide and tremble, make us bleed. Every single day, people, young and old, are taking their lives because of bullies. That's literally their name, it doesnt matter if that person is 30 or 13, if they are physically or mentally hurting someone they are a bully. Your own mom or dad could be that bully. Your husband or boyfriend.
That girl or guy at school. The mail man. That neightbor.
That person online who just won't go away. They beat on our souls and bodies like they are rags or scum on the earth.
Our minds are brought to the thoughts, am I worth it? Am I enough? Am I a mistake? Am I stupid? And after so long we begin to think. I'm not worth living. I'm not good enough for them. I'm stupid I'm a slut. I'm a gay. I'm a whore.
Here's where I make my mark.
Maybe it's on person, maybe it's on two, but if one person, somewhere reads this and feels something strong enough to make THEIR difference, then my job is complete. You, yes you the reader of this post. You are beautiful. You are talented. You are smart.
You are good enough. Do not ever let anyone, no matter who they are in your life, tell you differenlty.
If there is someone you know who is being abused. You need to emediently talk to an adult you trust.
There are also hotline #'s which I will place at the bottom of this page. If you know someone who is depressed (no matter how bad) please get to an adult. You may think, no I won't get an adult because they won't forgive me, they will be mad at me for telling someone, or maybe it just won't help, but you seriously need to get to an adult and get help for that person, their lives depend on it.
I know this post kind of went here and there, from my own upset feelings to yours to help to so much other stuff...my mind is crazy right now and I can't really make sense of this all momentarily.
I guess I just want to say, you guys, I love you. So please, before you pick up that knife, that rope, that pair of scissors, those needles, etc, please think of the people you love, and what that would do to them if you cut to deep or scarred for to long. You are to beautiful and amazing to punish yourself that way. The people who say these bad things, they are wrong.
One last time, I say this, You are Beautiful. You are Smart. You are enough. You are You. And no one in this world should change You. I love you guys, so please stay strong <3. I am here for you, simply an email or message away. loveneedlaughlive@gmail.com. Never hesitate to think I won't care or i'll be bothered. I promise to be there when you ask. I love you guys so much okay <3. Never ever forget that, Love ~Rose
Suicide Hotline: 1 (800) 273-8255 24hrs 7days a week (National Suicide Hotline)
Depression & Suicide
The Trevor Project Call 866-488-7386 (24/7) Live Chat with the Trevor Project (Fridays 4:00 PM to 5:00 PM EST)
Dating Abuse & Domestic Violence
loveisrespect Call 1-866-331-9474 (24/7)
Chat Online with loveisrespect (7 days/week, 5:00 PM to 3:00 AM EST) or text loveis to 22522 National Domestic Violence Hotline Call 1-800-799-7233 (24/7) Email the National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7)
RAINN: Rape, Abuse and Incest National Network Call 1-800-656-4673 (24/7) Live Chat with RAINN (24/7)
Child Abuse
Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline Call 1-800-422-4453 (24/7)
National Safe Place Text SAFE and your current location to the number 69866 (24/7)
Runaways, Homeless, and At-Risk Youth
National Runaway Safeline Call 1-800-786-2929 (24/7) Live Chat 7 days/week, 4:30 to 11:30 PM CST
Home Free Family reunification program provides free bus tickets to eligible runaway and homeless youth.
General Crisis Support by Text: Crisis Text Line Text SUPPORT to 741-741 (24/7)