Love is Hard...

One part of me wants to cry, the other thinks, maybe he's right...but I don't want him to be right you know...? It's 6 days away from our one year anniversary...could it really end this way...? now...? In the past I've made assumptions and thought omg he's going to leave but...I was wrong then...now it's him who is saying...i can't anymore...i might have to leave...and it brings me so far into tears...

He says what we have isn't love...or real.....he says that he wants a family and someone he can really touch and love...he says he feels alone and hurt and sad...and that i cant fix it....that i cant fix this anymore...i feel so broken...so beatened and bruised...

How can he say none of it is real...?

I want to be mad or angry...I want to be smart and say okay let's end this...but i'm neither of those...I am weak, nieve, stupid...I put so much into this past year...I really do love him guys...and i'm so scared to loose him now...I don't want it to end...but before I can even say those words I think it will be......i need him in my life....or i'm not okay....you guys im so scared to be broken again....im begging god please dont do this...please help me....it hurts so much and i cant take it....im not okay anymore...i love him...i need him...i dont want to loose him......</3 ~Rose