Sometimes You Just Need To Help You

There are two kinds of people in this world, people who have the ability to stay calm and collective over any bs that comes their way, and then there's people who don't stand for the bs ever. Of course I'm sure there's some people who sometimes take it, sometimes dont, depending on who it comes from. I am one of those people who constantly forgive, allow people to get close even after crushing me. I give a lot of chances and a lot of times I regret giving them, only to give them again. I'm just plain to nice.

Today, that changed. I love my boyfriend, we are almost a year now, literally only 2 or 3 days but we recently hit a big bump and I really want to work it out, but sometimes it just doesn't work that way. We were talking today and after a very stressy non talkitive talk, i said "I love you." His response really upset me...At first I felt bad, as always, I apoligized and I accepted that it was my fault and let him walk away, but then it hit me. I'm supposed to be his gf, I shouldn't have to say im sorry for saying I love him. So I went, "No, you know what, im not sorry." I went on to say that I should be allowed to say I love him, and if he really loved me too he'd at least say it back, or maybe at least okay, even that would of been better, but no, he left instead. I decided I was going out to eat and I did. Once I got back I said simply. I love you, I really do, but I have to stand up for myself too. I can't let myself get walked on or used. In some movies theres that girl who he has around just in case it doesnt work out with other girls and I wasn't about to be that girl. I told him flat out, he needed to make a decision, we were together, or we weren't. I love him so much, he is the most amazing guy I have ever come across really and I mean that. He's my hero and my love, and I understand if he needs time, but the answer broke me. I felt like he wanted nothing to do with me, like he's just trying to shake me off, get ride of me and that's not an okay feeling... I'm waiting for his answer on if he wants us or not. My point to all of this is this.

It's okay to love someone, to support or help or be there for someone you love. It's okay to do what they ask, to try, even beg a little, but at one point you must put your foot down and say "No. Enough is enough. I will not let someone use me. I will not let people laugh at me, or manipulate me, I am a bad ass chick and I will prove that."

I love him, and I really hope it works out with me and him, but I stood up for me, even though I knew it might make him frustrated or upset or anything. You are so much fucking better then the ass holes who fuck with you say you are. You're strong, and radiant, and beautiful and you are a total bad ass. You just gotta show the world, once in a while, that you won't deal with bs. I love you guys, and I'm signing out with a simple tip of advice.

No guy, no girl, no adult or child, can tell you what you are, but you. Stand up, look in the mirror, and smile, cause you are one bad ass son of a bitch. >.^

I love you guys and sorry for a few bad words lol Muah Love ~Rose <3.