i dont know...

honestly. idk what im feeling anymore....today he messaged me first. that was nice. and he really talked with me without any problems or arguments, which also was nice. but those words were in my head again....i shouldnt say i love you because he doesnt love me back. i shouldnt get so attached anymore because he could go away. i should be careful. i should watch out for me....how do i do that...? how do i look out for me when all i've ever done is think of him? how do i not cry thinking about him...? how do i really smile when i look in the mirror? i cant look in the mirror without crying...because i try to see what he saw to stop loving me so easily....i cant smile and think of our good thoughts right now...i used to be able to so easily think it but those few words haunt me so much anymore....he doesn't love me.........how do i accept those words....? you guys this hurts so much.....

i also wanted to thank you guys, because lately a few of you reached out to my privite messages and it means a lot. i will try my best to use the lemons as instructed lol and i will keep you guys in my prayers. i love you guys and thanks for all of your support on this... love ~Rose.