What if...?

I can't believe how quickly I'm falling apart lol. When he's here, talking to me, I feel okay. I mean he's there, we're talking, it makes me happy but last night, it just didn't end right and I was left alone and upset again....</3. The mirror is my enemy. Many of my friens are telling me I asked for this, or I should of known he'd do it...but I thought he'd be different. I mean, he is different. He's still here in my life right? Most guys would just walk away.

I now see what it's like to not say i love you....i can't say that because if I did I don't think he'd say it back....and mean it. I wake up, with my heart so low, so empty and upset....i cried to sleep last night....i feel stupid.........cause i don't think he's crying...i don't think he's upset. he's okay and im here dying inside lol...at least i can write right? well im gonna go now so, i love you guys, love ~Rose.