Deleting Your Nerves.

A lot of times I get scared and I take procautions and steps to protect myself from the things I'm scared of. iiii don't know why I do that because 97% of the time I am just over thinking or over reacting.

They always tell us our biggest enemy is ourselves, and when it comes down to it, I really fully believe that. No one is ever as hard on myself as I am. No one is ever as negitive as I am or as mean spirited to myself. Some days when I stand in front of the mirror so many mean and upsetting thoughts go through my head, until i'm practically in tears. I can hate myself, my looks, who I am, so much sometimes all because of something I started to think. I make myself scared of things, and I make myself nervous. I think I've always been like that though, and it's crushing. Starting today I wana try to be more positive on myself. I want to stop thinking negitively or sourly towards myself and just smile and feel good. I think we should all try that. I've noticed a lot recently that there are some people who aren't happy with their looks so they lie or they feel like they deserve some self punishment or pain. One part of me thinks maybe I should talk more about God. In the past I would go online and I'd tell people about Jesus, how he did love them etc. and then they would get saved etc. I just would hate to "push it down their throughts." I think I'll figure out what to do soon I'm sure. I love you guys and I hope you all have an awesome day. ~Love~Rose