Our Futures

I sometimes sit or stand in a certain place, my mind traveling through time. I wonder what our futures could really hold. For me I hope a husband, children, my own place to call home. I always said, "I don't want kids right away, I want to live me life first." but at the same time I'd love to be a mother.

Some days I'll be doing the dishes or washing the clothes or reading a book and suddenly I'll start day dreaming of him walking in the room, seeing me and smiling, coming closer and loving me with his manly authorty.

I laugh at myself right now, opening myself this way it's so silly. I never really really thought I could make a difference in a person life. I always really wanted to but I never thought I truly could dent their borders the right way.

But as I look around my life right now, I think of the people I have affected, and not in bad ways or anything, in good ways.

The man in my life, he is so strong and so sweet and so protective and comforting and understanding. I know when he and I are in bad places, I feel alone or like he could leave but a part of me will always know that if he lost me, or if i'd left, he'd be really hurting.

My friends would miss me if I were gone.

Some of my family would miss me too.

When a human being is sad they tend to forget all the good things, all the promising things in their lives. They forget all the happy memories and the things they'd wanted. Their judgement gets clouded and they really have no idea what they are saying half of the time.

Many people who I have met in the past and present that are depressed say no one would miss them, no one would cry or care. They tell me that it wouldn't matter, it wouldn't make a difference. And that is where they are wrong.

I may never meet the person/s reading this now and I may only have known you a few days, or weeks, or years, but I still care. I still sit here every day, morning and night, writing to you guys, maybe sometimes it's scarce but I know there are people reading here, caring, wanting to know what "rose" has to say today.

Well here is what I have to say.

You are important and you do matter. Your not stupid, the things you do are not stupid. You are worth so much more then you credit yourself being. You may feel as though you've never touched a person heart, or effected a person. You might feel like if you disappeared they'd all be better off...I feel that way too sometimes.

I want you to read this not because I want shares or likes or follows, but because I want people to realize, the people who push us down and hurt us do not effect our futures. They do not determine who we are.

The people you tell you you are not enough or you are wrong, the people who push you and your loved ones apart. None of them determine who you are, the things you are capapble of.

You are the only one who can make your life a success.

Make your future one that all the haters remember.

Make yourself known for the good you did and not the bad.

Prove they are wrong, and you are worth more than anything they could imagine.

You know my love is always with each and every one of you.

~Love~Rose