I Hate To Say This But...

I hate to say this but...cutting does make someone feel better, skipping a meal does make a girl feel skinnier, barfing up after a meal does make a girl feel better, and burning ones self can give a person releif.

All of these things do help and make sense to the person doing them, so dont judge them or tell them it doesnt. I hate to say this but you really do not understand the feeling of doing these things to yourself until you do them. No that isn't me saying hey go cut, purge, barf, puke, skip, excersise til drop.

It's me saying I'm kinda sick of people saying they understand if they didn't go through it too. It's one thing if you know how hit feels being bullied or being abused. It's different to say i understand how you feel if you've never felt low enough to cut yourself, low enough to cry to sleep and pray for death, low enough to hate yourself and cry when you saw the reflection.

I say I understand because trust me I do. I've been abused, used, hurt, broken, and so much more.

I've cut myself, I've skipped meals, I've cried to sleep and felt alone. Sometimes though I don't understand.

I might of cut too but for a different reason, so I don't really truly understand how something effected another girl or guy. I try really hard sometimes to help people but I can't help everyone...

That is my biggest flaw. I cannot fix and heal each and every person I know. I hate to say that but it's true.

I was once told the first step is admitting it, so there, I admit it. I admitted so much in these simple few paragraphs. ~Love~Rose