Where Has Time Gone?

Wow I looked today and I'm 11 days behind. I thought I was just 3 or maybe 4 but wow 11? I guess the last few days have not been so great. Every night I've cried and sometimes even during the day or afternoon...I'm not sure what I'm going to do about so much going on in my life. I realize I have a huge future I can accomplish. Whether it's Hofstra or the Airforce I can do it. I'm a smart girl and I'm prettyish (lol). I am very bad at letting go though...my life, my future might depend on me doing just that though....I have to start preparing myself and those around me for that...I know if it's all meant to be God will make it work out and stand along side of me while I fill my places in this world. I never want to think of a world where I'm not there and I don't have those I need there for me but sometimes I might just have to accept that and let it be. Maybe I'm just being crazy and over thinking. I just need to pull myself towards happier thoughts.